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The page was blank this week. It’s funny, I can stand in the shower or lay in bed at night and the ideas can wash over me like the warm waters on my neck or bamboo sheets against my skin, but to actually sit down and say what am I going to post about on any given Monday, well, that’s another story. Does your mind often race in situations other than sitting in front of the computer, a notepad or the notes on your phone?

 

Lately, the thing I do most when I’m just sitting there, pondering, is rubbing the two dark chin hairs that need plucked sprouted from my exciting and exasperating menopause journey. Lol.

 

As I told you, I have posts about the rigors of aging, part two of that menopause journey, social media opinions, what I’m eating, etc, but I just wasn’t quite ready to share any of those yet. They need twerking ya know! So what would I post today?

I can tell you I have a couple really big topics on my mind, but I’ll never share them on the World Wide Web or Insta, because they affect people, you know what I mean? Things that are really happening in my life, I can’t necessarily spill because I don’t want to hurt anyone or stir it up so to say. Yet, trust me when I say, they are all things that you could probably relate to especially women in this stage of life. And it’s not symptom related like a dry vagina or wanting to claw someone’s eyes out because they looked at you wrong, it’s the hurt in the heart and soul stuff.

 

That heart of mine is heavy and aches a lot lately! But I still try to be the positive, upbeat person that I know God leads me to be to bring smiles and joy to others! But lately I feel like I just got a BIG F in life! I don’t think I ever got an F on any assignment I did in school and failure is something that I seem to deal with quite well. I mean life is all about successes and failures, but in so many realms of my life right now I feel like I’m failing AND flailing. But this quote gave me some peace, your now is not your forever.

I feel like I’m asking the questions. What now? What to do in so many situations. While I always had a goal of becoming a college level professor, to go back to school now seems pointless when I retired early as to get out of the working world. Full-time influencing definitely is not my gig, it’s not for the weak of heart and it’s really so oversaturated. And truly, is giving you a link to a sweatshirt you’ll love really making a difference? Well, maybe a little. LOL! #cozychicrules

I will continue to dabble a little in all aspects of lifestyle influencing and for the relationships that are positive but that’s about it, lol.

I am extremely lucky that I have an amazing provider in Mr. Nine to allow me the opportunity to even ponder these things. Years ago, I wouldn’t have been so lucky, and I know some people have no choice in the profession that they are in. But that doesn’t mean you can’t dream or make changes.

 

Metaphorically and in reality, the sun comes back out even though in much of the country it doesn’t seem like it will in January, but it does. Every season has an expiration date. Even unfortunately, the good ones. I must try my hardest to make the most of each season, whether it’s finding strength in the bad season of life or grasping on tighter to the joys in the good ones.

Life ebbs and flows, and like a mountain hike, we climb out of the valleys and reach peaks when it’s our time.

So now, I set my pen to the paper not to write a post but to brainstorm what is in store for Andrea Nine now? Where can I make a difference? Where is my time BEST suited? Are you asking yourself any of these questions? Do you already know? I guess that’s my post for today. I can tell you this. Our family physician always says when we’re hurting about a situation to write a letter. Whether or not we send it is another thing, but just to write it down. I’m telling you, just writing this blog post of varying words has made me feel better. Thank you for reading, and I hope you have a Marvelous Monday!

Let me know: Have you ever written a letter for feelings sake?

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